I don't know what to do. All I can do is try to do my work as best as I can, although I really don't even want to do that anymore. I can't skip out, though. I shouldn't let anymore people down, I guess.
We're doing another single, but nothing's coming out right. Everyone blames me, even though not everyone will say so. But you know... they're right. So what's the point in going to work if I'm just going to screw it all up anyway?
But they'll just say 'well, don't screw it up, then.' ...so I have to go no matter what.
I called Yuki once. I wanted to see how he was. If he was happier without me. It's not that hard to find me. I don't even WANT to be lost!!
But there wasn't any answer... I called again, then gave up.
Maiko says I should just go back. She's been pushing me for a week, but she never finds any reason that I should. Well, she has, I guess... but I don't think they're very good.
Tomorrow, maybe... I'll just go see if Yuki is okay... Unless he's changed the lock already... maybe I can just peek in and make sure he's not dead. That'll be okay, right? He doesn't even have to notice me...
I really want him to, though...