Shuichi (shindou_shuichi) wrote in catchmeforever,

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From the edge of death...

When I was away from Yuki, I was sure my life was going to fall apart. But even though I kind of expected to feel like that, it made me a little scared.

I wondered if it was really okay to feel so horrible because of that. That maybe Maiko was right when she said I was abnormal. Even if she meant it in a different way, it's still strange to not be able to live without another person, right?

But the more I thought about it, the more I doubted such a theory. I need Yuki because I love him. I need him like I need air. Like I need food. Like I need water and warmth in the Winter and computers and keyboards. And it's perfectly okay to do so. It's like a law of nature.

If you really love someone, you should do it with everything you have.
And once you do that... once you've given everything to them, they become indispensible. You can't live without them because everything you need to survive is wrapped up in them.

And that's how it should be.

So... Maybe Yuki doesn't feel that way yet. Or maybe he just hasn't realised it. I thought about it... and it's not like Yuki and I are the same. I have to keep remembering that.
And so I went back on my own.

As bad as I felt when I was away, when I got back I realised that I hadn't even fully noticed how terrible it really was.

Now I think it's okay, though. He got mad at me for leaving. And I told him why. Even though he didn't really agree with my reasons, I think that things are going back to normal. I even decided to be nice and cook something for Yuki. I'm not really any good at it, but I think I have a few things to make up to him.
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